Village under the I

I pause by three tattered tents wedged between a black steel fence and a pillar below the interstate, a nameless village in The Town. The pavement ends beyond the fence giving way to dirt, more livable than concrete because you can plant things in it like stakes and flowers, burry things in it like shits and nutshells. In contrast to the bare earth, the pavement is intended for efficient passage from the parked car to the office, then from the office for a quick bite or a coffee, or to the store at the end of a long day. It lubricates the path of commerce, a social contract of efficient passage through acceptance of the status quo. But, if you try to make the pavement your home, its cold hardness makes for a hostile reception. It responds to your plea for life with a rebuff for you to carry on and be about your business, like everyone else. Who do you think you are? On the other side of the fence lies a disembodied piece of a car parked in the driveway of an American home, a fender, whose job it is to protect, abandoned on a sidewalk. How did it get there? Fender, fence, village on the fringe of one reality, where it does not exist, and so its existence is tenuous, though undeniable in itself, begging the question is no man, woman, or child an island? Few will heed this place without a placard or address. Few will think of its people, although they have faces. One day it will be dismantled  on the whim of an officer of some kind of so-called Justice. Who then in passing will so much as fancy its image as a memory conjured by the dust haze of dusk?

Beneath the interstate 880 in Oakland, CA. On Sunday March 5, 2017.

Los Angeles


A car stops to let me cross. I am going nowhere in particular, and maybe the driver is going nowhere in particular too, or maybe he is going to work. As the driver stops for me, I slow the flow of time, an infinitesimal act of rebellion against a world filled with so many notions of purpose frantically zipping about town, stalled impatiently in traffic, charging forward, brisk strides, senses merely registering amorphous obstacles to avoid them, imagination stalled on a goal. Is there a difference between cruising without purpose and driving to a destination? Los Angeles can be a dystopian future, overpasses twisting and turning, stagnant car-rivers, barren and lifeless like The Day the Earth Stood Still. Yet, at the same time, Los Angeles can be a beautiful city, a rocket ship on a rooftop, a pile of tires by the roadside, massive art deco bridges built of concrete and steel flying over industrial yards, through hillsides. Brightly colored flowers burst through the cracks on a sidewalk. I wonder how the cracks came to be – earthquake, fire, water. I wonder how the flowers can survive. A vibrant mural among warehouses. The city is filled with unexpected splashes of color, more beautiful for the ruins they inhabit. Los Angeles is a dystopian future, if you came from a sheltered past, but hope surfaces in this city.

My mirror, your eyes

mirror into your eyes

wondering conviction
fiction addiction constriction
diction lost upon this

thought

nomad man of morals
and morass
all the time wanting
all the time gazing

into a wider and deeper mirror

look at and reflect

consideration sensation
distortion consortium
seize it while it lasts
then let go before it
slips away

I, turtle

today i came down the same road,
the same one as the other day,
but today with a different heart
neither heavier nor freer
beating faintly without determination
the world seemed smaller and narrower
the mist clung to the pavement
drifting up the sidewalk
i drove down the same road
i drove down so fast
i lost control and the world
became a strange blur
everyplace was like home
at the start and end of it–
home was me.

today i entered through a different gate
met by the overwhelming colors of new faces
the song of new voices
i took flight through this bright light
my heals by the wings of my heart
i wondered at your gaze in my reflections,
wondered how you made it here,
it must’ve been the laughter that
filled my lonely unambitious heart
that filled my eyes with wild hope
that brought back that same
feeling of your closeness,
the new road was no wider,
the path no straighter,
but this time i ran.